Thursday, October 12, 2006
i will never forget wad u did to me.
u were the 1st to break my weak lil heart.
the 1st. but wasnt the last.
why? why did u do tat? why did u lie?
why did u steal my favourite pen my aunt bought for me from overseas and even came to comfort me and said u will be there for me?
why did u lie?
i treated u like my bestest ever..
and did nothing wrong. nothing wrong to get a broken heart in return
why?
why muz u do tat?
u help me tell ms chan.
and she din check ur bag!
why.
cuz i was too gullible?
yes.
i have been too gullible.
or mayb. cuz u tot tat it was only p1. so i wud believe u and trust u more?
yes.
i DID trust u.
i DID believe u.
but..
u were the one. hu stole it. u were the one hu broke my heart.
u caused me to gain sumting tat i dun like.
u caused me to have a PHOBIA!
u made my life miserable.
u gave me a life w/o many frens.
i din have many frens. cuz i cudnt trust many.
and cuz of u.
i was afraid.
afraid tat i wud be hurt once more.
the hurt u gave me.
was unbearable.
but i 4gave u.
i still wanted u as a fren.
fren.
why was i so silly?
yes. im silly.
tinking we still cud be frens.
no.
u rejected me again.
and u even told ur sis to stay away from me.
cuz ima bad ger.
i din even curse u.
i din even complained.
i din even tell ms chan to gimme another lil kid to take care.
i..
i..
i trusted u.
why?
joyce. why?
why?
i cudnt overcome my phobia.
can sum1 help me?
joyce, u made my life miserable. very miserable.
i cudnt bear to hate u.
i cudnt.
and yet.
u reject me again and again.
i cudnt bear to curse u.
i cudnt bear to talk bad about u.
i cudnt bear to rake up the past and make u like a bad ger.
i cudnt bear to hurt u.
but why did u hurt me? so deep? and so hard?
u were my only fren in p1.
and for the rest of the year did u noe how i lived w/o any frens?
u made new frens and even told them negatively about me
wad about me?
i din even talk negatively about u.
why?
i noe ur father's a swimming instructor.
i noe u lied to him saying tat pen was ms chan give one.
i noe. in my heart u lied to him tat u finished using it.
ur dad bought a new pen for me.
but it was another type.
i threw it away.
did u noe?
i wanted my pen back.
i was young then.
it was precious to me. very precious.
u stole it.
and i actually 4gave u.
do u noe how hard it was to 4give u?
how long i took to settle down?
and yet u rejected me again and again.
and even said all those tings to ur fren and ur sis.
haven u gone too far?
it has been 6 years.
not many knew.
and im only telling now cuz i din wanna hurt u
and make u ashamed in poi ching.
i cudnt bear to see u as hurt as me.
i held back my tears. althou i did cry then.
but i held back.
i din wanna cry cuz of u.
but now..
i cudnt control anymore.
this ting has been in my memory for 6 years.
and whenever i see u in pcs i turned away.
cuz i din wan to see u run away or face away from me cuz u saw me
to me u were a coward.
but whenever i sae tat i wud stop.
and sae u are not.
do u even noe?
this hurt is still here?
now i totally 4gotten about tat silly pen.
but the hurt was cuz of u.
its cuz of u.
joyce, cant we juz be frens?
i cant control anymore.
tears are rolling down my cheeks
and overflowing so much.
probably.. u are the only 1 hu can lemme overcome my fear. my phobia.
i wanna trust my frens.
but i dun wanna get hurt again.
ch0wy, save me.
help me.
i noe u can.
please?
u were the 1st to break my weak lil heart.
the 1st. but wasnt the last.
why? why did u do tat? why did u lie?
why did u steal my favourite pen my aunt bought for me from overseas and even came to comfort me and said u will be there for me?
why did u lie?
i treated u like my bestest ever..
and did nothing wrong. nothing wrong to get a broken heart in return
why?
why muz u do tat?
u help me tell ms chan.
and she din check ur bag!
why.
cuz i was too gullible?
yes.
i have been too gullible.
or mayb. cuz u tot tat it was only p1. so i wud believe u and trust u more?
yes.
i DID trust u.
i DID believe u.
but..
u were the one. hu stole it. u were the one hu broke my heart.
u caused me to gain sumting tat i dun like.
u caused me to have a PHOBIA!
u made my life miserable.
u gave me a life w/o many frens.
i din have many frens. cuz i cudnt trust many.
and cuz of u.
i was afraid.
afraid tat i wud be hurt once more.
the hurt u gave me.
was unbearable.
but i 4gave u.
i still wanted u as a fren.
fren.
why was i so silly?
yes. im silly.
tinking we still cud be frens.
no.
u rejected me again.
and u even told ur sis to stay away from me.
cuz ima bad ger.
i din even curse u.
i din even complained.
i din even tell ms chan to gimme another lil kid to take care.
i..
i..
i trusted u.
why?
joyce. why?
why?
i cudnt overcome my phobia.
can sum1 help me?
joyce, u made my life miserable. very miserable.
i cudnt bear to hate u.
i cudnt.
and yet.
u reject me again and again.
i cudnt bear to curse u.
i cudnt bear to talk bad about u.
i cudnt bear to rake up the past and make u like a bad ger.
i cudnt bear to hurt u.
but why did u hurt me? so deep? and so hard?
u were my only fren in p1.
and for the rest of the year did u noe how i lived w/o any frens?
u made new frens and even told them negatively about me
wad about me?
i din even talk negatively about u.
why?
i noe ur father's a swimming instructor.
i noe u lied to him saying tat pen was ms chan give one.
i noe. in my heart u lied to him tat u finished using it.
ur dad bought a new pen for me.
but it was another type.
i threw it away.
did u noe?
i wanted my pen back.
i was young then.
it was precious to me. very precious.
u stole it.
and i actually 4gave u.
do u noe how hard it was to 4give u?
how long i took to settle down?
and yet u rejected me again and again.
and even said all those tings to ur fren and ur sis.
haven u gone too far?
it has been 6 years.
not many knew.
and im only telling now cuz i din wanna hurt u
and make u ashamed in poi ching.
i cudnt bear to see u as hurt as me.
i held back my tears. althou i did cry then.
but i held back.
i din wanna cry cuz of u.
but now..
i cudnt control anymore.
this ting has been in my memory for 6 years.
and whenever i see u in pcs i turned away.
cuz i din wan to see u run away or face away from me cuz u saw me
to me u were a coward.
but whenever i sae tat i wud stop.
and sae u are not.
do u even noe?
this hurt is still here?
now i totally 4gotten about tat silly pen.
but the hurt was cuz of u.
its cuz of u.
joyce, cant we juz be frens?
i cant control anymore.
tears are rolling down my cheeks
and overflowing so much.
probably.. u are the only 1 hu can lemme overcome my fear. my phobia.
i wanna trust my frens.
but i dun wanna get hurt again.
ch0wy, save me.
help me.
i noe u can.
please?
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