Wednesday, September 06, 2006
siianed.. siianed.. SIIANED!!
i live thru everydae as siianed as NOW.
why does my sis have to get hurt at this time
and cant go work?
why does she have to hog the com EVERYDAE?
why?
why everydae all they sae is
"go revise"
"go do homework"
"go pack ur tings"
"u never revise u still wan play?"
"ur hw undone u wanna play?"
wad else?
she HOGS the com
she USES the com
she DUN let me use the com
she DUN let me step into her room to watch her pangya
wad else?!
after months of sku.
i finally get a week of rest
exam's A MONTH away
cant i juz get A WEEK of rest?
im tired.
i cant go on.
i wanna sleep
mayb..
dun wake up?
i wanna sleep thru these 1 week
i juz hope i wun wake up
i dun wanna face them and their naggings.
yea yea. WADEVA!!
wad u tinking?
i dun wanna die
im juz tired..
dying is a painful method of ending everyting
i rather die naturally.
why make myself die?
jump down? pain
cut throat/wrist? pain
shang diao? pain
see. all painful.
why make myself painful b4 i die?
den i'll be painful 4EVA.
i dun wan tat.
but im juz tired.
not tired of living..
but..
tired.
tired.
tired.
im juz plainly tired.
why cant they understand?
i did do my hw.
i did revise a lil.
its my hol.
why cant i juz take a rest?
all i wan is a rest.
they juz keep bothering me
and ask me to revise
ask me to do hw?
lemme tell u how much homework i have left
`art
`hcl (im doing now)
no more.
i even did my part in homeEc project.
i din bring home my hist text
no1 is willing to do it
i did my part by asking them to discuss
I FINISHED MOST OF MY HOMEWORK!
why cant i juz take A REST?
all i wan in this hols is juz A REST!
im siianed everydae.
althou i seem happiie in smses..
im not.
yea. im at least happiie tat sum1 sms me.
but its not enuf.
all i do is sms?
and wad do i get?
nagging for smsing sooo much
from 24th august till now.
how many sms did i use?
its the 6th september
i only use 200smses.
and they are nagging for smsing so much?
when i have 500 free?
and nagging tat i juz sms and dun do work?
I DID MY WORK.
I ONLY LEFT A LIL PART OF MY WORK
CANT I JUZ SMS?
CANT I JUZ REST?
im not veh happiie tat i can only sms
wells. i admit i lurve using com. yea true
but can u stand this kind of life?
no com? cant even watch?
fine. i did watch.
but sure cant resist playing right?
yea. but i cant.
i cant play!!
im doing my hcl work now.
thus i can blog.
but wad next? its only wednesdae.
WEDNESDAE!
i still have 5 daes to go.
live without com?
cant play?
the com brightens up my dae
at least i have someting to do.
dun u tink so?
wad else?
1 min ask me do work
the next min ask me revise
the veh next min ask me wipe the WHOLE HOUSE FLOOR?
MOP?
wipe - my legs hurt.
cuz i sweat behind my knees.
mop - my hands pain
cuz i need squeeze the mop DAMN DRY
wad else?
im tired.
beat. dead beat
im juz tired!
cant i juz rest?
cant i juz play?
why muz make me wipe the whole house floor?
mop..
yea right!
wads all this.
all i wan is a REST!!! A REST!!
look. i dun look tired?
I FEEL TIRED.
lemme end everyting.
i dun wanna die.
but let everyting end!
i hate the tiredness.
i dun show out the tiredness.
its in me.
the tiredness make me cry.
i dun wan to!
but i juz cant take it anymore.
i cant.
i have had enuf.
enuf.
i juz wan badly
a rest.
tats all i wan.
izzit so hard?
i hate straining myself
i noe i muz workhard 4 exams
but i dun wanna strain myself!!
do u even get it?
i have strained myself in sku work too much
when i get the chance i play the com
wad i get?
scoldings and naggings
hu understands?
im tired.
mayb i shud give up
i can give up everyting
my good results
my phone my mp3
i give up everyting!!
juz gimme a rest.
will ya?
crying..
crying..
crying..
but the tears cant carry the tiredness away
memories mayb..
juz lemme go.
lemme pull free.
i dun wanna tink anymore.
im tired.
since young my mum has been training me
at 3 years old i memorized the maths muplication table
i read storybooks
she gimme spellings
chinese spellings.
to be able to do well in spellings and exams.
i have to memorize
and i have stm.
i cant rmb!
i have to MAKE myself rmb!!
when i cant..
i juz cant..
u noe everytime we have mo xie i cant memorize.
i alwaeshear my clzmates in 5B 6B
trying to read out the mo xie w/o the paper
in the morning.
i wud listen
they are so good at memorizing
i made my effort.
but i still cud not memorize.
she makes me do this do tat.
memorize this memorize tat.
i have been listening to her.
althou i do rebel i do shout at her.
but all becuz i cud not take it anymroe
she hits me she beats me she scolds she naggs
she throws tings when she veh veh angry
but when did i once throw tings?
i wanted to
i wanted to.
but i have been holding bak
the extreme i went was shouting at her
i held bak
i really held bak
not becuz i was scared of the pain
the pain she hits/beats me
was becuz i was too tired
tired.
tired..
i may seem strong in p5 p6 yea?
im not.
i can take all the hits leh shuen did yea?
not pain yea?
not true.
i was too tired to feel the pain..
using a pencil box filled with pen hit my head where can not pain?
juz tat i was too tired to feel it
i had fun den
i really had fun
althou getting hit or hitting them wasnt wad i wanted
ha ha ha
but during tat time i had fun
really muc hfun
the fun of bickerings
the fun of having frens
the fun..
made me happier.
but the sadnees tat happened to me..
i wud never 4get..
joyce... she hurt me real bad
so did warren and his good pal in p4
and many many others.
they made me build up this wall
this wall against the rest
stoping them from coming into my heart
stopping them from making frens, good frens with me
cuz of them..
i lost trust in many many ppl
and thus if they make me bu shuang i hit them lorr
the wall is still there
the wall cud never be broken
never!
i wanted to.
but i realise i cud not break it down
childhood memories was wad i cherished most
but u all made it bad 4 me.
u all make me build tat wall
tat probably why im not tat good with guys.
unlike val emma elaine..
unlike jinni ada sheryl..
birdiie.. jingyi..
they all can.
i juz cant
im not good with gals too
but gals lesser.
cuz those tat hurt me was mostly guys..
they made me build tat STUPID WALL tat cud not be broken
i tried breaking it!
i juz cant..
tell me. how to break it?
please. TELL ME!!
i have been a weakling since young
i looked strong iznt it?
im not
im not im not!!
why am i doing this to myself.
im hurting myself more
im crying more badly
i cant stop anymore..
sum1 please save me..
save me
save me..
i may seem perfectly alright talking to guys on msn .
yea true.
face to face? i cant
i oreadi tried.
cuz msn is different from face to face.
msn.. i dun have to see ur face!
i dun have to rmb hu u are!
i dun care hu izzit!
im juz tired.
i dun wanna continue everyting
save me
break down my wall
if i cant..
i have to depend on others
lemme gain bak trust in u
help me break it down.
i dun wanna live in this wall anymore
stop hurting me.
im hurt oreadi
ive hurt enuf
i dun wanna live liddat.
lemme find more true frenz
lemme gain bak trust on u
i dun wan this life!!
save me
help me
cuz i cant save myself
i cant help myself
i need u to save me
to help me.
i need true frens
tat i really trust in
can u help me?
can u save me?
i live thru everydae as siianed as NOW.
why does my sis have to get hurt at this time
and cant go work?
why does she have to hog the com EVERYDAE?
why?
why everydae all they sae is
"go revise"
"go do homework"
"go pack ur tings"
"u never revise u still wan play?"
"ur hw undone u wanna play?"
wad else?
she HOGS the com
she USES the com
she DUN let me use the com
she DUN let me step into her room to watch her pangya
wad else?!
after months of sku.
i finally get a week of rest
exam's A MONTH away
cant i juz get A WEEK of rest?
im tired.
i cant go on.
i wanna sleep
mayb..
dun wake up?
i wanna sleep thru these 1 week
i juz hope i wun wake up
i dun wanna face them and their naggings.
yea yea. WADEVA!!
wad u tinking?
i dun wanna die
im juz tired..
dying is a painful method of ending everyting
i rather die naturally.
why make myself die?
jump down? pain
cut throat/wrist? pain
shang diao? pain
see. all painful.
why make myself painful b4 i die?
den i'll be painful 4EVA.
i dun wan tat.
but im juz tired.
not tired of living..
but..
tired.
tired.
tired.
im juz plainly tired.
why cant they understand?
i did do my hw.
i did revise a lil.
its my hol.
why cant i juz take a rest?
all i wan is a rest.
they juz keep bothering me
and ask me to revise
ask me to do hw?
lemme tell u how much homework i have left
`art
`hcl (im doing now)
no more.
i even did my part in homeEc project.
i din bring home my hist text
no1 is willing to do it
i did my part by asking them to discuss
I FINISHED MOST OF MY HOMEWORK!
why cant i juz take A REST?
all i wan in this hols is juz A REST!
im siianed everydae.
althou i seem happiie in smses..
im not.
yea. im at least happiie tat sum1 sms me.
but its not enuf.
all i do is sms?
and wad do i get?
nagging for smsing sooo much
from 24th august till now.
how many sms did i use?
its the 6th september
i only use 200smses.
and they are nagging for smsing so much?
when i have 500 free?
and nagging tat i juz sms and dun do work?
I DID MY WORK.
I ONLY LEFT A LIL PART OF MY WORK
CANT I JUZ SMS?
CANT I JUZ REST?
im not veh happiie tat i can only sms
wells. i admit i lurve using com. yea true
but can u stand this kind of life?
no com? cant even watch?
fine. i did watch.
but sure cant resist playing right?
yea. but i cant.
i cant play!!
im doing my hcl work now.
thus i can blog.
but wad next? its only wednesdae.
WEDNESDAE!
i still have 5 daes to go.
live without com?
cant play?
the com brightens up my dae
at least i have someting to do.
dun u tink so?
wad else?
1 min ask me do work
the next min ask me revise
the veh next min ask me wipe the WHOLE HOUSE FLOOR?
MOP?
wipe - my legs hurt.
cuz i sweat behind my knees.
mop - my hands pain
cuz i need squeeze the mop DAMN DRY
wad else?
im tired.
beat. dead beat
im juz tired!
cant i juz rest?
cant i juz play?
why muz make me wipe the whole house floor?
mop..
yea right!
wads all this.
all i wan is a REST!!! A REST!!
look. i dun look tired?
I FEEL TIRED.
lemme end everyting.
i dun wanna die.
but let everyting end!
i hate the tiredness.
i dun show out the tiredness.
its in me.
the tiredness make me cry.
i dun wan to!
but i juz cant take it anymore.
i cant.
i have had enuf.
enuf.
i juz wan badly
a rest.
tats all i wan.
izzit so hard?
i hate straining myself
i noe i muz workhard 4 exams
but i dun wanna strain myself!!
do u even get it?
i have strained myself in sku work too much
when i get the chance i play the com
wad i get?
scoldings and naggings
hu understands?
im tired.
mayb i shud give up
i can give up everyting
my good results
my phone my mp3
i give up everyting!!
juz gimme a rest.
will ya?
crying..
crying..
crying..
but the tears cant carry the tiredness away
memories mayb..
juz lemme go.
lemme pull free.
i dun wanna tink anymore.
im tired.
since young my mum has been training me
at 3 years old i memorized the maths muplication table
i read storybooks
she gimme spellings
chinese spellings.
to be able to do well in spellings and exams.
i have to memorize
and i have stm.
i cant rmb!
i have to MAKE myself rmb!!
when i cant..
i juz cant..
u noe everytime we have mo xie i cant memorize.
i alwaeshear my clzmates in 5B 6B
trying to read out the mo xie w/o the paper
in the morning.
i wud listen
they are so good at memorizing
i made my effort.
but i still cud not memorize.
she makes me do this do tat.
memorize this memorize tat.
i have been listening to her.
althou i do rebel i do shout at her.
but all becuz i cud not take it anymroe
she hits me she beats me she scolds she naggs
she throws tings when she veh veh angry
but when did i once throw tings?
i wanted to
i wanted to.
but i have been holding bak
the extreme i went was shouting at her
i held bak
i really held bak
not becuz i was scared of the pain
the pain she hits/beats me
was becuz i was too tired
tired.
tired..
i may seem strong in p5 p6 yea?
im not.
i can take all the hits leh shuen did yea?
not pain yea?
not true.
i was too tired to feel the pain..
using a pencil box filled with pen hit my head where can not pain?
juz tat i was too tired to feel it
i had fun den
i really had fun
althou getting hit or hitting them wasnt wad i wanted
ha ha ha
but during tat time i had fun
really muc hfun
the fun of bickerings
the fun of having frens
the fun..
made me happier.
but the sadnees tat happened to me..
i wud never 4get..
joyce... she hurt me real bad
so did warren and his good pal in p4
and many many others.
they made me build up this wall
this wall against the rest
stoping them from coming into my heart
stopping them from making frens, good frens with me
cuz of them..
i lost trust in many many ppl
and thus if they make me bu shuang i hit them lorr
the wall is still there
the wall cud never be broken
never!
i wanted to.
but i realise i cud not break it down
childhood memories was wad i cherished most
but u all made it bad 4 me.
u all make me build tat wall
tat probably why im not tat good with guys.
unlike val emma elaine..
unlike jinni ada sheryl..
birdiie.. jingyi..
they all can.
i juz cant
im not good with gals too
but gals lesser.
cuz those tat hurt me was mostly guys..
they made me build tat STUPID WALL tat cud not be broken
i tried breaking it!
i juz cant..
tell me. how to break it?
please. TELL ME!!
i have been a weakling since young
i looked strong iznt it?
im not
im not im not!!
why am i doing this to myself.
im hurting myself more
im crying more badly
i cant stop anymore..
sum1 please save me..
save me
save me..
i may seem perfectly alright talking to guys on msn .
yea true.
face to face? i cant
i oreadi tried.
cuz msn is different from face to face.
msn.. i dun have to see ur face!
i dun have to rmb hu u are!
i dun care hu izzit!
im juz tired.
i dun wanna continue everyting
save me
break down my wall
if i cant..
i have to depend on others
lemme gain bak trust in u
help me break it down.
i dun wanna live in this wall anymore
stop hurting me.
im hurt oreadi
ive hurt enuf
i dun wanna live liddat.
lemme find more true frenz
lemme gain bak trust on u
i dun wan this life!!
save me
help me
cuz i cant save myself
i cant help myself
i need u to save me
to help me.
i need true frens
tat i really trust in
can u help me?
can u save me?
нØSYx3.™ miss you lots @ 11:07 PM